I am not quite sure when courage learned my name, but at times i wish we were still strangers. For the past nine days, ever since I accepted the request to write and read two poems for a Jazz night concert, I have been a nervous wreck.
I enjoy having opportunitites to speak, but the thought of putting my innermost emotions (via poems), thoughts and passions on stage in front of hundreds of people I don't know, is rather frightening. It's days like these that make me wonder why in the world I constantly make myself so vulnerable. Obviously there's no backing out now. I just hope I can keep my nerves calm during the day. Once I am up on that stage, the jitters should subside, but until then I am going to have to keep myself occupied so I do not become overwhelmed with thoughts of no one liking my poetry.
Despite the temporary unease circulating through my veins right now, I am determined to enjoy the beautiful music, great singing, and laughs with friends. The calls I receive from courage are not always welcomed, but I am appreciative of his persistence. It is through this trying relationship I have learned to not hide from, but actively participate in the experiences life brings my way.
May you dare to do the same...
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I Also do not have a mother. I was 13 when I had my daughter that is when I left my mother because she was on drugs and I did not want that life for my little girl. I love reading your blogs.
ReplyDeleteOh, I am so glad you enjoy the blog articles. Stay encouraged. Enjoy life! It is very hard not having the influence of a mom in your life, but you can still make a tremendous success of yourself and your daughter. Blessings to you!
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